this one is for you

‎"Repetition does not transform a lie into the truth."--Franklin D. Roosevelt

This quote gives me lots to think about, in fact, it relates a great deal to a conversation I had last night. Repetition does not transform a lie into the truth...so then why do we do it. I will be the first to admit that when I don't believe something I will tell myself over and over again that I do so that I will eventually start believing it. Never does this work, so why do I continue to do it.
I do care about you...probably more than you will ever know. I mean we both know that we care about eachother but I care so much more.
You are one of my best friends and always will be.
I honestly don't want you to go...but I know it will be best for both of us.
No one will ever be able to take your spot.
We first officially met October 10th. Our conversations began November 19th. Our first kiss December 19th. So much has happened since then....it's amazing how things change. Now 8 months and 10 days later we are completely different from when we started. We laughed. We argued. I cried. I forgave. We laughed some more. And through everything I can honestly say "I love you". I have come to grips with the fact that this love will only be the love that I have for my bestfriend.

You have taught me so much about myself and life in general. Spending days on end with you has made me grow as a person. I'm going to miss you. Everything about you. Your smile, your eyes, playing with your hair, cuddling with you, your warmth when I was always cold.

Everyone warned me not to get involved. I'm glad I chose not to listen and to figure things out on my own.

love you.


p.s. you still haven't taken me on the hike you promised :)

Well here it goes...

Well, here I am. I have caved into getting a blog. I can credit this to Kelly Cannon, her blog is awesome and she is awesome, so I want to be awesome like her!

Well Summer 2010 has been pretty uneventful so far. I am working at the Facilities Management office on campus and I am also an Orientation Leader. Orientation has been so much fun! I have loved getting to meet so many new people! I love living with my Kelly Rodkey, she is the best roommate. We spend many nights sitting up watching tv and just chatting. She is always there for me even when I'm crying hysterically. She is always finding some way to make me laugh.

At orientation I met the most amazing guy! He is basically perfect. He rides dirtbikes, is military, and loves southern California...AND wants a pet monkey! He is ideal. The only problem is that he is going to boot camp in a couple of months and then is doing a tour in Kuwait, so he won't be back for another two years. Hopefully I get to see him lots before that though.

I have been missing my Alpha Phi sisters like crazy! The few that I have been able to see all summer are so great and I love them so much! We are doing a COB initiation this Friday & I'm so excited! It's going to be so good to have so many of my sisters in the same place!

Well I think that is enough for now!